Every dusk
Panama turns its back on me,
that’s fine, I've forgotten, already.
I'll remember Puzzuoli's, in lieu of these misgivings - like last time I heard
Obviously Five Believers, as I closed in on Singapore City,
half-awake, three-quarters trying not to sleep -
Puzzuoli’s, in porno-blue fly buzzing light.
In Panama City I found something -
everlasting peace, a solitude of
marble statues, jazz music tarred in sepia,
married men twisting their throats
in barbed-wire - another mile-long boulevard of sweaty cotton suits
before they considered divorce.
It’s final, divorce -
a sweaty man in a dry cotton suit
tells me.
It's 12 hours after midnight -
Jesus, this is hot -
It's hell on earth here;
like that time in 1987
trudging through a forest,
shovels on our collarbones,
the gas-station kid’s body leaving stone-clutched trails
in the sour-faced dust. Oh yeah, I remember -
that first time I knew Puzzuoli's
was damned
was last May or April -
Paul Henry's blue-blurred dusk made stop-signs
look like Modern Art
stolen in a late-night heist,
Van Morrison
caught a Los Angeles connection,
and we drank wine no-one kept receipts for.
In Panama City
the divorce rate is slowly rising,
alongside the moon, the mercury, the capillaries of broken bottles -
Puzzuoli's
tearing-down
like a grizzly bear
chasing us through a forest
John Doyle became a Mod again in the summer of 2017 to fight off his impending mid-life crisis; whether this has been a success remains to be seen. He has has two collections published to date, A Stirring at Dusk in 2017, and Songs for Boys Called Wendell Gomez in 2018, both on PSKI's Porch.